A Seventeen Year Old's Fantasy

My classmates always links some cute boys to me . Wherever we are , they always got the time to be make me intruded by their yells and pinch on my waist . I always got myself freaking out with them but i actually cannot , coz they are my friends . Theres a time of seriousness that came to our circle . it is about your future . My future . What we wanted to be in our lives . Who we wanted to share those basically called " awkward secrets" and everything under the heat of the stars .

Then I realized about having a house . A really unique , super- UNIQUE house everrr!!! yeah! Then , I shared this topic to my classmates who are with me every Tuesdays and Thursdays , to kill our time , sharing all what we have in our minds is a kinda hobby for us .  Read those things below and see and imagine with your bare eyes what are the Fantasies of a Teenagers .

Meet Berry , she had an average proportion of her body , a broad and prominent face structure with a match of that little dimples below her smiles . She is now in a relationship with a maritime student . He always discriminates her pet . She called him , Ugly , jerk , Freak or whatever you think that is not suitable for a girl to tell it to his man. Yeah !

Let's us now go on to another person , she's Anny . A Chinese descendant of the Tang Dinasty (just kidding) . anny is a pretty chinese girl who always dream about having the man of his life . Guess ? In Visayan , " sige sya ug damgo" . She always expecting some boys close to her that he is that Mr. Right ! We have Chris , the cute churchmate , which is now texting Anny's sister's bestfriend and the most trending boy issue in her own town -Anny Town - Jay . I kept on telling her that she should not expect anything from these boys , coz BOYS are definitely , not an almost MAN! Get it ? Sucks the most is , what boys opt to be is not what they sometimes are . They let you expect everything and gave nothing . Iron , irony , ohh please ! Ironed them out! Too much sermon for that Ms. Anti-Boys! Not me ! Hahah!

I have with you my friend , call him DAMN ITS YOU! Yeah . It is his real name . I dont take a damn if he would read this certain part of my blog . This is Nestea's degree , IBUHOS MO NA! This man , actuallly a man to be is a friend of mine (almost) . He always tell me some serious things about heart , how he admires me  and impress with my wits and whatever the hell they call it . One night , while waiting my friend on the other room to finish her classes , I texted him . Telling what's up ? Or asking some regular ask-it portions of texting . After ... 3 minutes I think . He was out of the coverage area . God forbids . I thought of that . Yeah! What pissed me off ? I am the one who got to text him first , oww.. by the way , it is a group message -  GOOD THING I REMEBERED THAT! Yeah! I almost degrade myself! Sound so berating you sh*t! That day , I promised myself and to the Stars that I will not text him anymore in my entire life . But I would be lying if I would be telling you that I did that . I didn't do that . It is not good for me to kill myself little by little . And then , I promised myself to be pretty always , so that goddamn thing will and should regret for letting me like this . Sound so make me stress 'bout this . STOP!


Let us go on to Me! Yeah ! It is ME ! ooyyy! Excited .. Hahaa! Me ? I am not an interested , passionate , pretty , vigorously attractive and emperically smart Eve-alike being on earth! Want some proof ? Ask my ex's . Well , I am not so exciting with that Love Love Love , whatsoever . First reason , I am only seventeen , I don't want to be in a hurry .I am BOOKS OVER BOYS principle . I dont want to put burden in my family to trash my studies . Dah ? It is so hard to mantain this such scholarship Ma Mehn! . Second , I am for Mr. Right Guy! The Right One that God choses me to be with . I know he will be there , he is almost here . He actually made it but I opt to see that direction on your top . And the last thing is , My Papa is my man . If I would find somebody like Him, or more than Him , I would not mind the first two things mentioned above . If I can' have him back , so I can have someone like him on my back .

My Ideal Man's descipted as , tall ? NO! Taller than me . Smart ? NO! I think the term is , unpredictable than me . Responsible? Half of it . Coz I myself takes responsibility well , if the two of us are leaders , I dont  call it a team . As long as he respects me as her mom or an older sister and treats me like a bestfriend . Well , can I have a dinner date? Hahaha!

I am only seventeen and I cant demand for any lovelife , my Life is God , and keeping me Loved is my family and friends- that is a reality . Twisting of the keyboard let me say this , I am not regretting any flings that I have . Yes! I know that! I am proud of the truth that I am not good in any love song . I am singing it . Yes I am .

I wish some Pumpkin by Fairy God Mother has arrived it's way to me . EEWW! O. A kaayo! Hahah . And when I am Thirty Five , I recall this a past . But for now , I can have the term - fantasy .

** special thanks to everyone who supported my stories and everything junk or not , in this blogspot!  yeah yeah yeah yeah! you can have some stories suggestion adn sent it to my e-mail ad , jsa_rockslives19@yahoo.com .

I will be rockimg up my room with happiness if you would doing that! Love you a lot lot lot lot lot lot lot ! The more of the a lot!

^.^ Jessa Barquio Segovia Valencia Sumagaysay

The Toughest Tigress

This Poem is specially dedicated to the toughest Tigress . One of the Lion and Ram's daughter -- Aillen .
hope you'll appreciate this . :))

She is the second daughter of the Lion and the Ram,
One of the people that would never belong to some.
She always have whatever she wanted to be ,
But there is nothing she , aside from being free.

She is that extra ordinary tiger who struggles on the wild,
She is the one who has been awake even all are tired.
But she wants to be a lion not a tiger,
She leaps on more on the higher.

Until the Little Tiger got a lot of choices ,
It is the time when there is a lot of voices .
The moment when not all things could be heard,
And there is no one and nothing being feared.

All she got is herself and the fur she was made of,
Through the times , it is rough or uneven soft.
What she all wanted is to be free,
How it is possible when she was all that all can see.

She climbed up the mountain and say what all want to hear,
That they will know how her life is on tear.
Lay it up and never stay alone,
For you never got the night when you never experience the dawn.

The Tigress grew up after a century and last among all those years,
She made it even getting the deepest tears.
Never felt any pity for herself and to her heart,
She never ended even without the start.

The King Lion was dead after being speared,
She roared out in the cave the nothing would be heard.
It is the life that she never imagine it will come!
All she had is how the bird sings and hummed.

Along with Foxes , she get into the other wild,
Where everyone are ordered and filed.
But this is not all she could be!
She lied down over swamps beside a tree.

Before the throne has given into her,
She met a White Tiger.
It is the King of the Miserable Kingdom of Snow,
The place wherein no one is likely want to know.

But all of the certain all has been done,
A love being shared warmer than the sun.
A memory that will never forgotten,
A sweets that will never be rotten.

The greatest fight is all what she wanted to be,
Even living a life throughout the stones and misery.
She is the one that even frogs could tell,
That even foolishest if the foolish could spell.

The Tigress' life is all what she was made of and see,
It is all who and what she is being free.
She never got into the battle of Rams,
But she is in the Lion's greatest damn.

For this Tigress is the fierce among the Fishes of the best sea,
She made the softest fleet , much better than the Bee.
She never got blown and taken away by the Elephant's cough,
For all in the ages , she was hailed as the Most Tough .


---jessa o9.25.11

Sa Akong Pagpanabi Didto sa Stars

Kung napul-an na kamo sa mga Engilsh o English man gali na nga mga sinuwatan ug balita . Hala ! Basaha ni ninyo ! Charu di mu mabuang! Haha! Wala lang gud , usahay man gud sa atung kinabuhi kinahanglan nimo ug "break" bah . Para makahunahuna ka ug tarung kun sa laglum pa na mga term , " pagpamalandung sa kaugalingun". Ang kana nga butang dili lang para sa mga ma kakasala . Abi kay namalandung wara a ug kriminal . Di ni ana uy! Pastilan! Nagsuwat ko ani kay para makabalo mo nga " multilingual ko" , di bitaw , para charr lang gud . Lain man gud ug i-English pa nako ang akong dapat ihinabi ug isuwat . Hastang pangita paminawun lagi! Basahun diay .. :)

Mao ni ang nahitabo . (Wara baya ug naa .. Naa bitaw)

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Usa ka adlaw , ordinaryo nga adlaw para sa akoa . Nimata ug alas singko i-medya , nanghilam-os , nanudlay naghikot ug buhok ug niadtu ug tindahan sa akong iyaan para makatabang-tabang. Bisi kaayo kay hastang daghana ang magaon didto . Si Ante pod , lami kaayo muluto , mao na hinuon ni , hastang gubota bsata naay daghang kustomer .

Sa pag-adto nako ug eskwelahan . Sa dyip . Naghuna-huna ko sa akoang bestfriend . Atung miaging gabie , gitext nako siya sa akong discouragement sa akong ka-M.U( naa koy M.U uy! Ako pa! Haha!) . Kay naa aman gud syay uyab . Sakit man tuod . Pero wala nako damha nga kini akong bestfriend lahi na nag pasabot sa akong text sa iya . Ni-tawag ko pagkahuman nako ug  hugas sa plato . Wala pa gani ko nka-kumusta miingon dayun ug , " Bai ? Pagmove-on na uy! Si ********* naa naman to sysy uyab! Kamo bitaw atu , wala nimo gi.unsa...... " Nakurat ko na nakatawa sa iya gipangyawitsa ako sa celpon . Mitubag ko , " Ha? Pataka ra ka bai! Naunsa ka ? Hulat ha . Mutawag ko unya. " Gusto pa unta ko mutawag niya , pero kung mao lang na , ayaw na lang!

Kay wala man koy laing maistoryahan ani , sigi na lang intawun ku ug tabi sa samin , sa higdaanan , sa libro , basig asa gud , Usahay si Cherry . Diha nako nahunahunaan . Kung ako lang isa sa world asa man ko padung . Libog akong ulo , warag kog tala-tala lagi! Sus na lang ani . Taga naa koy gusto i-estorya nya wala maminaw , magtabi kog pinabuang , wara kog nagtabi didto sa stars . Kung mutubag lang jud ning bituon , nganu gud dili ? Unsay mahimo nga di man jud . Katawa na lang ta ani .

Naghunahuna ko . Ang akoang 'ex'. Usa ka tawo nga warag naay sariling mundo . Pero sa iyang pagkaning-ana , amigo man mi . Daghan pud sya ug amigo .( Pasayloa ko kung kaingun ko) . Wala ko kabalo kung kanus-a jud nako ni siya nauyab pero uyab daw mi . Bagay daw mi . Ambot nila uy!

Stars ? Kabalo ba ka nga wa nako tan-awa nga uyab nako siya . Di man gud ko mutuo anang true love ug forever . Lagi . Buanga ani stars uy ! Unsa imong maingun?

After times nga nag-uban mi as a classmate ra gayud! Kung kami duha , bestfriend ra man . Siguro bata pa mi atu pero , wala ko nagdahum nga matapos amung pag-uban sa wa pod nako masayri nga rason . Nakipagbulag kuno ko niya . Hilak pa gani siya , DRAMAHHH!!! Ako ? Wala uy! Unsa ko ? Haha !
Karun naa na siyay uyab . Mas buotan daw . Mas buotan lang! Haha . Wa ko masuya uy! Siys na lang pod . Kabalo ba ka nga suko-suko siya sa pagpa-erase nako sa mga pics nako sa iyang facebook ? Haha! Ang KANAHAN! Warag guapo! Estoryahe imong kuko! Suko nako ! Haha

Stars ? Nakit-an nko akong "M.U" . Char na kayo siya . Maayo pa kayo akong pagtagad niya uyab na diay sila sa babayenng pak-an? ambot kinsa to! Lagot kayo paminawun nga ning-atu ang kapadungan! Tsktsk . Ayaw na ni nga topic uy! Lamaw na kayo ! Haha

Niagi sa akonh hunahuna si Mama . Usa siya ka babayeng nagpuyo pa sa miaging siglo. ( sorry ma) . bitaw . Tan-awa ra gud , mutuo siya nga walay tawo nga mamatay kung dili ka-eskwela ug kung guapa ka , mudato jud ka! Ambot ni Mama uy . Buotan man sya .( Basta limpyo ang balay). Pirme ko niya kasab-an taga-muapil ko ug contest nya mangayo ug mas dako nga kwarta kaysa sa regular nako nga baon atung hayskul ko . Iingundayun niya nga , " Undang na! Walay tawo nga mamatay kung dili ka-eslwela !" Pirmi ko muingon sa akong hunahuna ( Kay dili man ko mutubag) . "Naa Ma uy , ako . Maghikog ko kung dili ka-eskwela ." Wa pa nako na maingun ba .

Stars? Mu-apply man ko karung panahuna ug scholarship sa ADDU . Tabangi ko ug hunghung sa moon bi . Madawat unta ko uy! Gusto ko mahuman didto . Gusto madungong ko nga taga-didto ko . Kulba lang kay basig di palarun bah . Noh ? Hahay . Maningkamot jud ko ani . Kay kung di ko madawat , adtu jud ko ug Education ani bah . Kabalo bya ka nga wala jud koy gusto anang pagtudlo ha . Hahay na lang ani .

Napakong akong ulo sa atup-atup sa dyip . Mihunong ang dyip ni Angkol Botay atbang sa  ADDU . Musulod unta ko , pero next sem nalang . Kay warag dili pa sila ready sa akoa . Haha!

"Pagsure Jessa! Itabi ra na sa akoa! " , si Stars mingsulti .


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So Far , mao pa ni ang pinaka-way pulos na akong gihimo . Sagdi lang , nalingaw man pod ang keyboard dire sa e-lib . Hehe!



Nagyawit diri ug mga pulong ,
Jessa :))
o9.22.II

Irony of Truths : The Almost Perfect Way to Say Goodbye

I saw Papa's pictures in my bed , holding a microphone and wearing headset . He was assigned in the radio systems of the camp during his work/duty times . Seeing that emotional thing , mixes with my poor-imaginary -sensitive emotion , the vivid color of my dreams shones up like any Sunshines did .

I always want to be lady broadcaster . Since I am not that pretty to be seen on TV , I always dream to be in-front of any microphones . I love giving commentaries on-air , I love making voice out of anybody else . For short , I always want to be someone who always talk and speak .

As time goes so fast like waves in the sea . The waters makes my long pants wet, but after all I still convinced myself to get onto the sea and take some splashing plunge . I am inspired by many media men as I am progressing as a student in my hi-school days . I love saying , " SA ULO NG MGA NAGBABAGANG BALITA ....... " I want to be heard every 4 o'clock in the morning . I love waking up all my neighbors and making them proud .

But as a young person who eventually changes it's mind everytime someone says something , the dilemma comes . I change my mind , I want to be a police woman , I want to wear that "akin-ang-batas" outfit . Besides I really look like a chief police , with this figure- I really deserve it .
Many years after , I decided to be the president of the country . If i could , then let it be . There is nothing to be afraid of . As a young ones , I really want to set some kind of the tallest tower of inspirations to meet my goals . Right ? So let us see what is next .

When I reached college , I supposed to take Criminology course . It is really my plan to have that course . But , when I review the brochure that was given to me by the guidance officer officer of our school , surprisingly I changed my mind . I wrote the words - Bachelor of Arts Major in Mass Communication . I don't know why . I love the feeling of reading those words in my enrollment form . Call me a freak if I would say to you that , it is really not me who wrote that , it is Jessa . Not J-sa , not Jesza , nor Jesxa or even Jesaskeh . It is really the real me . Jessa with no worries what my Mama would tell me when I return home or what they would do unto me if they will know that I change my mind and break what is really expected .

Going home . I never expect what was my Mama's reaction that time . She never scolded me . She even take a look of my prospectus and ask me when is the first day of classes . See ? God wants me to be in here . He wants my good always . He loves me and so as my dreams in life .

A year after , I was granted with a government support scholarship . I am so happy that it came in to my life when my Mama is a kinda depressed by all of the discouragements my older sisters gave her . But , unfortunately , the grant will be implemented if i would shift into another course . My world turns unto gray . my hands are turning into ice that slowly cracks by every moment I think about it . My feet are slowly going to the Earth's core . I really felt that something . The feeling of some monster , ants  , bugs and other chaotic things in my liver ( not in my stomach) . I want to cry . So hard . So long . I want to be dramatic but my mind keeps on saying that I have to be practical . I have to and I must .

By the end of this semester I have to see Ms . Feli . I have to make some changes before I shift from Mass Com to Education . While making this post in my blog , while making my tears being kept and making my smiles pure- I must accept the fact the I have to make a great big step towards the word "practicality" . I hate this feeling . The feeling of being pushed to the dike when you knew that it is your best friend did it  just for fun . The feeling of saying "yes" to a suitor that makes you think that you are a nonsense being .

Parang punyal na itinirik sa puso ko na pinupukpok ng matigas na bato . Hindi ko alam .

I know someday I will really learn to love my future course . Maybe God has made a lot of plans to me . Maybe those plans are really suited for me . I can drink root beers just forget this thing . Eat a lot of marshmallows while it is hot . Stay away from my MassCom friends just to feel that I am not out of the Earth .  Play DoTA to have fun . Everything ! I would really do it just forget that I am taking five stairs backward to my aim and dreams . But the truth is , I will never forget it . I feel it

On the cinnamon , I am expecting that this choice will lead me to a great adventure . As long as I would finish my studies and show the my diploma , I would just laugh in this thing .

My ambition to be a writer is undying . I want to make a legacy on my own . Maybe this is such a way that God destined unto me . I would be the next teacher turned writer! Bwahaahaha! I will be writing my own word in a newspaper , magazines and many more . And the best thing , I would be changing and touching lives by these words that my passion in writing had given to me . It is more than what I want , it is God wants me to be .

Maybe now I would say that this might be some sort of horrible decision in my life , with some tears in my eyes and some wet feeling in my nose while grabbing Kleenex Brand Tissue in my bag - this is great , more than great!

I will never say goodbye to Mass Com , it is my dream and my first love and it will always last . My 'ex' replies to my post in his page , I told him that he have to erase my pictures in his page . The mammal replied , ""BUBURAHIN KO NANG MATAHIMIK KA NA RAW!!" , "okay! request granted!!" and with this , "hayan, nabura na matatahimik ka na."
Making some nasty grin , I remembered the night we broke up . With tears in his eyes with a hug? Poor ex . He really can't forget me ha! Haha . Pero buh-bye gihapon sya ! Gabaan! Haha . Good bye ex! PERFECT!

Unlike him , I am devoted to writing and speaking. I will never get over with it . I can't move on and forget Mass Com . Haha . If na-lalake pa lang ning MassCom , panguyaban ko ni ba! Sus nalang!

I can't say goodbye to writing , MassCom as a whole . I think we are destined but Education is the one my parent's dealed with . I am engaged to it .

Since no one and nothing is perfect . With a kiss and another flying kiss fellas , see you soon MassCom . (This is a a farewell in an almost perfect gestures! )


Jes-cerely yours.
Sumagaysay , Jessa Barquio
ABMC-1
22.o9.11 :((

Daydream: To My Dear Root Beer

I haven't seen you in a awhile since I left you in the park the last time I am troubled with everything that surrounds me . I am so sorry leaving you half of that . But , at least I left you with Mr. Chips . I am so down that time that I can no longer say what I feel . they said that it is the stage wherein what they call "teen" have time by themselves only . I love being with you . Though they say you can cause dilemma to my health , but I really don't care . You are the only one that I am always standing by in terms of anything that troubles my spirit .

I saw you beside Mug in the mall . Are you filling up my space by using Mug ,don't you ? I so love you like this much . Why won't you tell yourself that we belong together . I quit being with Sting . I stop going with CC and Peps . Coz I miss you . Every time we're not together I feel being lost . I so miss you . I don't know why .

I sat beside Hiyas in the mall , holding you by my side . You're making my jeans felt the coldness within you . I love it too much . I am making myself steady you don't even know nor care really . I can't do anything to loose you . I can't do . Every time I decide making things right , they are all getting wrong . You promise me that you would be there , but you are not . What happened after 1 year ? Did you forgotten all things about me . Yes you really are .

As the day , the day that we met last . I am with  you in the canteen . I had seen  2 people who told they love me . I am so sure that they are not . They really not . They haven't talk to me . They haven't seen my with you . Maybe they are just liars . Liars . Liars .

Among the lies . You are all the truth . You make me wonder that why you should named like a crime when you are a deed . You makes me feeling what I want to feel . When the times I am getting bored , you are there making me feel a click and click and the too much click . You want me right ? Yes . Unlike them . Unlike them all .

God forgiven me saying that sometimes you are my happiness. When friends got busy like customer service lines . When it is getting rough you are making it crisp without the lime . Thank you to Zest-O for making you cheap .Though they call you Old fashioned , brewed . You may tastes like Vanilla or Cherry .

Maybe the tree will be going bald and sere , I still want you . I want any Root beer.

As Wiki said to me that you are , "Root beer is a carbonated, sweetened beverage, originally made using the root of a sassafras plant (or the bark of a sassafras tree) as the primary flavor. Root beer, popularized in North America, comes in two forms: alcoholic and soft drink. The historical root beer was analogous to small beer, in that the process provided a drink with a very low alcohol content. Although roots are used as the source of many soft drinks in many countries throughout the world (and even alcoholic beverages/beers), the name root beer is rarely used outside North America and the Philippines.Most other countries have their own indigenous versions of root-based beverages and small beers but with different names."

Sincerely ,
-- jessa :)) o7.o9.11

Daydream : The Confessions of a Tall Girl

My Mama- a plain housewife agrees that being simple is really being beautiful . She believes that it is the most and the greatest things in life she always had. But , when we are growing , she always said that she is more prettier than us - when she was young . My Mama has an average height that is 5'4 or less than a half of it . She had nothing to say with her height . She  don't mind mind the length of the jeans neither the choosing a pair of shoes .

I don't know if it is being unlucky or not . But , we , her daughters are different from her . My eldest sister is 5'8 tall , I am near to that 5'6 now at the age of 17 . My sister , namely Celya is 5'6 tall . She is really pretty , smart and gosh ! Fitrum Body baby! She is really like a beauty queen . In that factor , being that tall is really an asset for her . Actually , I know really , that she is really going to bring home any crown in the near future . I am saying the truth fellas . She really is .

When I was in grade school , I use to be not this tall . I am an average girl . My classmates are taller than me . Though I am bigger in size , they are obviously tall . I do not play Chinese garter coz I don't jump so high bcoz of my height and weight . And I am really chubby then , so I don't really fit in on that game . It matters on me every time on that times!

Things had change when I reached high school . My classmates have been growing so fast . And ME ? 
FASTER! Yeah . I am 2 inches tall to Charlene when we are in 2nd year . My best friend Hanny is more than 3 inches shorter than me . Now ? Guess ? Do I felt anything bad ? :(( Not that time .


I felt that I am a kid growing older  I feel so out every time we were together . I felt than I really , never belong to them . It sucks and hurts that you are different from them . You are a Princess along with the Fairies , when you always wish that you are a witch . Get me right ?

I always feel that I am such a joiner something . Sometimes an intruder of their own looks . I really look different . I am the blue among the greens . I am the tower among the village . I am the Avocado in the salad . The lemon in your coffee . Though they always say I am pretty , I felt that I am " ugly duckling " that time . So bad that I am that goose that was joined in the ducks.

My Ate Kane is the only girl in the house ( except Mama) who never tried discriminating me . From being a fat girl who always cry when there is nothing wrong to being a tall and big teen in the school .
She is the tallest woman in the clan . I can never imagine myself that Ate is that tall like Venus Raj . It is .. I don't know . Maybe I can be like Iya Villania someday . Haha!

My sister Mai and Celya calls me " Inday Sara " . I got angry and humiliated in that moment . Not bcoz I am big as they compare me with our Mayor , but the thing that I want to be the President of RP either than the Mayor of Davao . Really ? Really nga eh .

When they discriminates me at home , they keep on saying that I am big , tall and masculine . I think I am not . I am like ... GOSH! It is really our Mayor that I am thinking now . Okay . Accepted .

With this height and size , our neighbors got mistaken that I am the older than of Celya . Insulting ? Yes . It is . Celya is 2 years older than me . So , do i look like 20 ? Oh my momay! Sucks . Now you know kayo uy ! Ahak.

Like going to school . I usually commute going school and back at home . There is a time that , in one day , every time I get into the jeep I banged my forehead or my skull in the jeep's ceiling ( whatever it is) . It really hurts . I am getting worried that maybe someday , the time would come  that I may be forgetting all things in my life bcoz of that . Huhu .

My classmates used to notice me with my height , it means - I am not really pretty . Yes . I am not . Being tall is not actually an advantage neither a benefit . Not just your are tall , you are sexy . some feels like that .

Being short makes me seeing myself inside the box . Acting like a doll . Chaka doll . Really it is . Hehe

Some Girls want to be like me ,  tall and I don't really mind the other ideas

 . Did they ever think how it feels in this size ? Let me tell you may things . First , you gonna choose Parisian instead of a cheaper shoes . You gonna have the size 10 shoe . Eventually , it is not available . You are not in America , there's no size like yours Joe! Haha

 Then , you gonna find a jeans which is longer than the usual . You gonna buy more than the required meter of fabric whenever you gonna need attires , costumes and uniforms for school . You have to choose 18 than the usual 16 size of Girl's shirt . Ant the last thing is what I always hate , during my high school days , I always positioned on the last part of the line during flag ceremonies . It triggers the feeling when it is after the rains . Imagine fellas . Yuck , yuck . yucks . I hated it!

 But I have nothing to do . This what I inherited to the Papa of the Papa of the Papa of my Papa . Yes , I would learn to love it . Maybe it is awkward to see me with my friends which leveled my shoulder or ear. I love friends . And height doesn't matter to me . As long as they love me too no matter how tall am I .

Maybe I would be taller than my Ate Kane when I reached the age 20 . But , I know , I have the long way to go! Choosing the pair of shoes is easier than choosing the pair of prosthetics legs . I mean that , instead of denying what you are , let us be what we are .

I realized that thinking that I am different is the most thing that I could really accused myself -- a racist . I am discriminating myself every time I do that . And it is something that makes me suffer more we. Right ?

Being tall makes me learn the importance of how God make me unique! Beautifully and Gorgeously unique with my height . I may be not playing any sports that requires this  , but I know I play differently .

God is so good that He make this life wonderfully ,and me ? I can give it a meaning without discriminating myself . Getchi ?

HAYAHAY -- :)

--jessa o5.o9.11

pen and keys: Quitting Love Songs

pen and keys: Quitting Love Songs: To make up a good mood , would you sing this song with it's cute sounds for me ? This , Once I throw on this bowchickawowwow Whatchu gon...

namali pjod kug butang ug icons . hahay nlg jud!
hmmp!

na.erase tanan ang akong goangsulat nga bg.o , wa ko kblo sa hinungdan! RAWR! naglagot jud ko!

Quitting Love Songs

To make up a good mood , would you sing this song with it's cute sounds for me ? This ,
Once I throw on this bowchickawowwow
Whatchu gonna say
You act like you gon leave
But I know that you gon’ stay
Break it down dicky downdown
Girl dont even play
Once I set the mood right I’ma make sound like

***

" Have you ever told you that I love you . Have  I told you that thre's no one else but you .. " , my Mama always love that song every afternoon or even in a hot hot Sunday . The song tells how a man love his women . How he appreciate her a lot . Due to the respect I am having to my Mama , " I really love that song too !" .

Jessa (daw)

When I was in 4th year , there are 4 boys who courted me . ( sound so sucking ) Okay ,before I got mad here .. I admit it , some are good but some are not . In my 17 years in earth , I am never into a good relationship with opposite sex . It does not mean that I am not pretty , but the truth is , I think that it is . Get me ?

Those days I felt my hair grows fast this long .  Really long . LOL!

I am not waiting for any Romeo who could lend his hand for me while I am upstairs . I could never sing what Taylor Swift said , " we were both young when I first saw you... " eeehhhh . That is really petty funny dear! I quit thinking that I am Cinderella . Coz I am Snow White , living with her 7 dwarfs , in the heart of the forest ecosystem and in the hierarchy of the man and organism's evolution! HAHA! :p

There is a time that I saw my crush in the mall . With her girlfriend . My heart keep saying and singing , " akin ka na lang , iingatan ko ang puso mo! " Pero corny kayo uy! Wara bya ta ug guapa ha , dili baya! Then I realize if he had saw me first than her present girlfriend or he must be singing , " sana dalawa ang puso ko , di na sana nagkaganito , umiibig sa inyooo! " That is really a dream .

Lovesong , lovesong , lovesongs ! It makes a man inspres to the one he admires and then fall in love . It make a girl to say when your'e serenading her with your guitar . I mean it . I was once a victim of that serenade campaign of the nonsense mammals here on earth . They say , " coz a girl like you is impossible to find , tonight will be the night that I will fall for you , over again , dont make me change my mind! " Well , I am really impossible to find , I am the only SUMAGAYSAY her in our school . Haha!

I might got lost in some of our lovesong that was sung by our hearts but this does not mean that it is all what it is . sometimes , it is just a past time . Like the song , " but i cant keep my eyes to the road knowing that she's inches from me . " Yeah . when someone sits besides you while you are in the jeepney arriving home . You might sing it if he/she is pretty or "pogi" . Tama??? TOOOMOOO!!

One of the country singer I always mistaken that she is singing a lovesong is Taylor Swift , that , " absent mindedly making me want you! " It is or not ? IDK! I dont know .


I dont know how to forget my Papa before , til mow I am still in the recovery . I  always dedicate a song to Papa . But I really did'nt know what it is . I always remember him with his words and the Miley Cyrus' song sounds back that , " always gonna be an uphill battle , sometimes you've gotta have to loose . It is not a love song but its is my love to Papa. Before I get emotional here , let us go on to the love love love . blah blah blah! haha

I wanna tell you about my mew classmate . we often see each other in Writing , Re Ed and P.E class . He was in love right . He always think about love . Haha . Murder najud kayo ning si Mr. DKI bah  . He posted some lyrics of the Rhianna single , " and i hate how much I love you so ." I really want to tease him everytime I remembered it. But , he is one  of my new friends and I do not want him to take this bad shot formula . Hawd man gud daw ko mangalaska , sa kanto pa , "mangiro " bitao. Well , it is his heart . Senti ? Yeah right
.

"You're really lovely .Underneath it al.l You want to love me.Underneath it all. I'm really lucky.Underneath it all.You're really lovely "
Kilig man jud . Promise . It is bringing the feeling gud man . sabehh ? That is the song , sung by one of the student of our school during our assembly. She feels it . I hope someday I may too . :((

The last time I sung a song is for a heart breaker . No , I'm not what you think . It is . It is .You know that band Spongecola?That , Di Mo na Mababawi song ? That ,

"Di mo na mababawi iniwang sakit
Sa mga salitang binitiwan mo
Hindi ba't ikaw na rin ang nagpasya, nagtakda
At siyang unang umiwas
Bakit nga ba ako 'yong pinaasa? ..


stucks on my mind .  The more I hate to hear it is the more , I am usually got regret and regrets and regretted  and regretting.  Meanwhile , I am trying my best to prove that . I am not deserving for any heartache .

Ate Karen (daw)

Kasab-an jud ko sakong Ate ani ba . Hehe





I am concentrating to my studies now . I am inspired by God , Family and Teachers and all people whom I knew and knew me . This is my happiness,
"Why is everybody so obsessed?
Money can't buy us happiness
Can we all slow down and enjoy right now
Guarantee we'll be feeling alright.

Listening to music and loving is not always a love song to me . Contradicting the picture below .  I don't remembered that word , who means a lot before . Duh! It is a .. Nevermind either

 I will and yes , I swear! I will  quit this protest ( kinda) if someone
or that someone that could make me singing ,
"God gave me you to show me what's real  
There's more to life than just how I feel  
And all that I'm worth is right before my eyes  

And all that I live for though I didn't know why Now I do,
'cause God gave me you".











Now , do you think I can quit love songs ? Let's see . Hehe


Have a Melody everyday with God's music !
-- jessa o9.o2.11 :))

Keeping Right without My Papa

How you feel when you lost someone ? who extremely means a lot to you . Who let you know everything that is under the sun . Well , it is how it feels like when I think about my Papa .

He is a soldier . He never stays at home the whole month , often never go home the whole four weeks even . Irony at its finest . Though he let us see what he always strive for , like in any movies about families , this is a blah blah dramatic . I hate crying scenes . But when Papa is talking about or my family , I can stop them from falling like raindrops . I always missed my Papa so much .

When I was a kid , he used to asked me about my school , and tell me that I have to stop bullying my classmates and my best friend Reyna . He said that it is bad . And when he said it , I would really do it . I stop playing with the boys in our school after that day . I am so sorry with Papa that he even didn't saw me changing my attitudes and how I am so goo , so good girl by now .

Missing Papa , is like a routine to me . Crying at night and in the blank by day . I should've let go of him , he is the one I would never replace by any millions of cash and I would really choose him than my bey blades before .

I reach college without him . My Mama always say that we have to do hard in order of my Papa. But the truth is all things that I accomplished like being the class valedictorian , awarded almost of the award in the programme and being one of the pioneering artists/writer of our school is so useless to me . I miss Papa . I would rather be dull and idiot just to have him back . So bad I couldn't bcoz God prohibited .

But see , I am an inspiring writer , a good daughter ( hope so ) and a students who stands that we have to strive for our country's tomorrow and who claimed the words of God and by my own principle . Loosing Papa is so hard and I am dying imagining it . Thus , I am a real , good , fantastic ( so arrogant , isn't ist? but true) girl he ever wanted . With God , I am doing good! With my Mama who is always there for me ! With my Papa in heaven whom I missed for almost nine years , I am keeping my way on the right track!
Keeping right without Papa is just a very hard task and a kind of adventure that God had given into me since I was in Grade Three . God is so good . I don't even know if I am on the first stop of this trip but I always pasted on my brain that Papa will always be there for me . He is listening , I know . He sees me , I know . He loves me , absolutely . He always think of me , that's it! We are all Papa's girl at home . I am not competing with my sisiters either . That is one way I can show how I love Papa .

I can show Papa that , my mother raised me as he wanted too . I can no longer hear on what he could say . But my heart ? My Papa always be here . He is more than a true love . He might not be the man , I can say that is perfect . He is more than a knight . Until now , he still is .

Papa and God with my Mama & along with the people surrounds me are partners in this journey . With them , slowly but surely , steadfast or faster I am keeping my way to my goal .


Love your Papa as well as everyone who loves (and even who don't) you!
-- jessa :( o9.o1.11

Likes of Men to Women : My surveys Says ....

It is such a crazy experience I encounter the last time join the Phase 1 training of the the chosen organization I entered in my second semester here in my school . It  is a what  we call a funny recollection off those things  I really don't expect that I would be thinking again and again . These are the things that most specially tagged as fave by women ( an the alike . ) Well . Read all of these in this  page , because we are gonna talking about what men likes on us and the hidden reasons behind it .

 I and older cousin sometimes helps my aunt ( i think always) in her eatery . We usually came in the morning and help do some store chores like grilling some meat parts for the barbecue . The stand was positioned fronting the highway in which many people are passing going their way to school and nearby offices . And then theres a time that we saw  girl . Wearing skin-tight jeans and fitted yellow shirt . He ( my cousin ) exclaimed that the girl is really hot . And when the girl turned his head , and we found out that he really look like a man . She is not really a gay man but he really look like a man ! Therefore , the first thing boys liked about girls is the hotness . The body for short .

The wits - the overall beauty with the smarts . Yes , when I was in High School , many courted me because I am popular being an "it" girl and an honor student as well as a student leader . Thus , this thing makes it sucks . Because I don't like being admired because of that .

We have the voice . Really , me too . I admire men with such good vocals or even speaking voice . We are leaving in the modern times , so many depend on fones . So some are communicating each one with it . Calling is one of the mediums . Who will not gonna fall in love with such good voice without seeing him/her ? (aberr ???) i would really admire a man with such musical voice ( if ever) . But this does not assure the physique of the person as well as the personality . My sister fortunately owns a really sweet cold voice . And that is a plus for her because , she too do have that pretty face .

I thought about the talents . I mean what she could do . And her/his abilities hat is uniquely adorable by many . My friend in high school was really distinguished by her ability to dance . She is really good on that . Though we have almost the same aspects and prospects in our looks . She is known for her talent . And that is the only thing many man reasoned out when I ask about how he fell in love with her - " it is dancing " .

Who could say no if someone asks you that she will buy you a new fone and a laptop ? Yeah . Boys ALWAYS like a girl who can treat them as a king . A king that has a lot of riches and many many material hings . And in that incident , the boy is not into the girl but eventually fall in love because of the concern (money) and caring ( vices) that the girl gives. ( The Practical Theory :) )

Time is really  a diamond. Not a gold . My survey says that , third parties always came from a friend into a lover status . It is really undeniably true . When a man spends a lot of time with a certain girl , he might fall in love with the girl that he is along with and fall out with the person he is committed to . Time is a great aspect of a relationship . And if he enjoys every time he is with you that is the moment he is falling in love too . ( IDK!)

The face itself . It is really a epidemic crisis nowadays that man looks up on the girl's face . If they would see a girl that is really pretty , they admire it easily , then fall in love and love it . But when a man falls in love with a less fortunate gifted according to faces , it must be the personality he fell with . Right ?

The sense of humour . Popularly known as the accompaniment of smiles theory . This is the factor in which the boy is falling in love with the girl by the reason that he enjoyed and entertained a lot with they are being together. Men always love i someone that could make him laugh bcoz they are problem prone mammals in this world . They might deny it , but they are . They want someone that could make his their busy day with a full of joys . As I was ridin a passenger in the tricycle leading to the terminal I saw a handsome boy with a funny faced girl . They are holding each others hands and laughing all along . May God bless the boy . He might got sick . ( Mabuyagan tungud sa iyang kauban .) Get ? Hehe


The last but the least among what the girls think . The simplicity of the girl is much like by boys . They might not say it but boys always love simple women as the always see in their sisters , cousins and moms at home . They love what girls are natural with . They are sure in love to the girls heart-warming beauty in which it is only seen by true love only . The thing can be always seen by acts and physical looks of the girl . Sexiness of the girl may not be affordable by men  .  They might got used into that and throw it wherever and whenever . But simplicity , would always be there . It would never fade . It is a must to accept what you have . Simplicity is a pure gift . and too much decorations may spoil the disposition .


All boys are unique in terms of what they liked on girls , but this does not mean that we have to always be according to them .
Love comes as God chooses the right time . If you would push those things that you never wanted just to be admire , you might suffer a great sickness that is " time never let it back syndrome . "
Like is like and never be called love either . Like turns to love when God let us see what it really means . See ? :))



Make your day complete with a prayer everyone !
Adios!
-- jessa o9.o1.11 :-D

Kadayawan Diaries of 2011

     There is really no place like Davao- that is the very thing I would really say when I would be going home . I am a “ just-a-traveler” . I mean that I am into places that I could find the satisfaction of going into many journeys like traveling East to North . But guess what ? I keep going back to Davao . Not just I really came from here but this is purely the home I would never dare to replace .

Every third day of August , Kadayawan was celebrated by the Davaoeńos as well as many tourists came from overseas and nearby cities and municipalities . This festival was hailed as the festival of all festivals . It is the king of all festival in the country . Reasons behind it are very obvious . One is the colorful representation of the living historical tribes of Davao . This depicts the discovery of Daba-daba to Ciudad del Davao . The demonstrations of such tribes like Manobos , Mandaya , Bagobo , Kagan , Samales and many more were shown by the Indak Indak Kadalanan 2011 . These tribes' dances of feast , harvest and cultural representation were brought alive by the students came from different schools and people came from different ensembles . It is amazingly magnificent to see the colorful culture of Davao by its tribe despite of beliefs and religion and culture . Davao is indeed a city of merging diversities of many people and culture .

On the star-studded side , nay artists came from different artist center from manila came here to join and experience the Kadayawan with us . I admit it . I regret that I don't have the chance to see coco Martin at NCCC Mall . But I am sure that the Davaoenos are really on the cloud nine by that time most specially when they'd witness the PGT's Musical Protege like our very own Bruce Osorio which have show what they got at Gaisano Mall of Davao . Malls are emptied . I mean emptied of space.

The coastal is also an event's venue ,. For one of the radio stations based here Davao held a “ Bangkarera Festival .The event was joined by many boat riders and operators came from outside and inside the city area. the Sta. Ana wharf was really filled that day .

And if you think that was all , wait! There's more ! A nursing student of San Pedro College was crowned as the Hiyas ng Kadayawan 2011 , replacing the throne of Bernadeth which is remarkable of representing her tribe from Paradise Embac. The new queen represents her tribe is none other none Rahina Usman . Her beauty and wits along with other girls makes Davao's ethnical features more interesting .

I remembered last Saturday's experience of mine . My uncle and I were on our way going to school . But since it is Kadayawan , we are on the alternative route to lessen the traffic and the reason that the road will be used .We luckily seen the beautiful drive of the participants' colorful and creative costumes and props in which accompanied by the festive sound made by their musical corps. I was about to be deaf by the sounds made by the drums and cymbals but I have the Kadayawan Spirit on me . It sounds so weird but it is really a fact ! I enjoyed it so much!And the essence made the cold-rainy morning hotter than the Venus. I love seeing it . It is reminiscing my years before in high school when I was still a member of the drum and lyre corps . The heat of the sun that makes me an African-Filipino and the splash of our own sweat diminished by our enjoyment and smiles.

But before I got so sentimental here . I want to share the float parades that I had seen this morning in the news paper. It is the so-called “ Pamulak sa Kadayawan” . It is came from the word “bulak” meaning flower in Cebuano , the blossoming of flowers of Kadayawan. Colorful flowers were arranged into forms and designs to make a beautiful portrayal of Davao City's festival . A trivia for that, the Abreeza Ayala Mall , who join the category for the first time won the top prize of the Pamulak sa Kadalanan. . The float describes the representation of cultural highlights of Davao City .

Davaoeńos and tourists were surely never ever forget every Kadayawan experienced they could have. As so , as I am . Though it really sucks ton think that I missed the whole thing in actual of it , I do believe that every day is a Kadayawan for me . For we are enjoying ourselves a the people of Davao everyday .

An example to show how Kadayawan is fun-filled celebration , I want to share some reality story here . It is when I was in high school . Since I am a member of the Girl Scout of the Philippines , we are task to give as long as we can , the contingents' participants water or juice to help them in their performance . It is one way of imparting yourself as being one of the people of your city . It is when a tourist , an American citizen is taking some pictures of the parade . When he saw us , he smiled and giving a thumbs up . With no hesitations , I told him with a loud voice saying , “ You want to see the beauty of Davao , Davaoenia and Kadayawan ? Well , look at us . We are about to laugh but it is really surprising that he told us that and ask if he can take some of our smiles and faces in his camera . He shot some . A one , two , three, four and the more and more . He felt so enjoyed a well as my peers , he told us this , “ Davao is really so wonderful like you.” it is really an overwhelming of joys that day . That the fact that even him who didn’t know our story appreciates us .

The month-long celebration of Kadayawan also held the Sayaw Mindanao 2011 , in which the stories of our cultural richness were depicts . One of the contestant is the Kapitan Thomas Monteverde's bird hunting that showed up the promising ethnic stories of the natives , specially the our Lumad brothers and sisters .

The Trade Department of Davao also held a caravan in which many tourist or even the Davao people can purchase a discounted price for products such as agricultural products of the city .

Though this year's celebration is rated 8 out of 10 by our mayor , I know it is worth the effort of the people behind its success . It is really hard of controlling the crowd and the threat of the rain . You can't blame all the flaws on them .the sun didn’t shone up the whole day and the rain drops hard in the afternoon . It is a sign of blessing from God , that He , the Creator celebrates with us on that day .

Let us not live the celebration just like an eagle who flew so fast but instead let us take it as a Durian's smell and taste that sticks on our finger . I mean we have to treasure the richness of our own city . With this Kadayawan festival , we can show up the world that we are still on our beautiful culture and living our own history . Kadayawan is not just a celebration itself but it depicts the beautiful aspects of Davao city's history , culture , ethnic binds and the progressing city's rich yesterday and tomorrows story . This is also a unique representation of a clear creation of Davao's spectacular richness and God-given gifts that we have to treasure.

Lastly, Davao indeed is a melting pot of of all trades and the alike . Leisure are leisure . But Kadayawan is not only a leisure feast and a time here in Davao . It is an event wherein colorful ethnical stars and modern clouds of today merges to make a beautiful Davao's Kadayawan sunshine . :-)

A Girl's Thought In An Embarassing Day

     There are a lot of experience that I would really say I am humiliated as a person or as an individual created by God . But what's intrigues me most is when I was shock that I had seen a reality smashing ( or whatever you describe) experience with schoolboys here in our school .

    Boys are boys that was the only thing when I would think about some boys who are not acting the thing that is should be reacted by man . Well , when we talk about domination , though we are really dominating in numbers . But believe me , they really control and manifest more rights than us . With no malicious reaction , let me tell you this . It was first describe from the ancestors of the ancestors of the ancestors of all ancestors! okay! that is enough . Man is highly appreciated as the master of the Ancient and Pre-Historic accounts  , they are much details about king , a little on queens .Stories telling , "... he is waiting for his prince after a long sleep..."Have you notice about it ? Let us not deny the fact that , they really are the one who rules the blah blah TIMES! But , years and millenniums had past and gone. so ? Why should we stick on that ? Even POKEMON and DIGIMONS evolve ! So , as well as human right ? It is funny to think that many women following this kind of belief ( that men rules) . Far from what is taught in the Far Far Far away land , I am not waiting for any prince in my entire life ! REALLY! :))

     I believe that God has made a partner which would really be there for me for the right time . I quit listening to any love songs , it ruins my day ! Find me rude ? Yeah ! I'm rude . :p

   Let us not go far with this , I would really tell you something that is seems to embarrass me every time I remember . That is , when I am riding the malls elevator going 3rd floor . There are 4 typical kinds of passengers , a granny , a sexy whatever , a student (me) and a maritime trainee .When we reach the destination , the maritime trainee gives way to that sexy bombshell while the old lady was slightly clinging herself on the elevator's wall . Look ? Where's the gentleman word on it ? Does it mean that they are men so they are like that ? Don't tell me that being men means not acting according to good manners ? Oh come on !

   Another situation is when I was inside the school e-library . Many students lined up to avail the free internet surfing on that place . When a student stands going outside , that means he/she would be replace on that unit giving others a chance . But what is really a mess ? A man , or let us say for immaturity , a boy , walk so fast reaching the isle to that certain seat while overtaking the girl  that is walking slow . Well , I can't deny that it was a disadvantage . But for me ? The word " gentleman " was sold out in the market . 

 Dominating doesn't always mean that you are right . in the times of Martin Luther King and Mahatma Gandhi , they are not what the majority comprises of ,but still they are a part of the history . Right ?

 Moreover , women are just a part of the man's rib but , without women ? Men are totally USELESS!! No offense! 

    For Women : Raise your right hand if I am right ! ( obviously , you would do that . hehe)

    For Man : You don't have the right to argue with that! LOL! :))))

-- jessa saying ".. equality is always be what Cicero said . "

o8.22.11

 

A Dose of College Trips

   And here we are again  . I usually came to my 1:00 pm class , 30 minutes advance but since I am enjoying that much coziness here in the e-library , I would not do that punctuality this time .
   I wanna tell about my MWF experience with the most fantastic mentor for Rizal subject I ever met in my whole , blah blah blah ENTIRE LIFE! I'm not kidding here . Yes , he is . The first time i met him in our classroom , that was a , ugh ! Tiring . Sweating . Exhausting . Since  I have to walk along a narrow road wherein many students pas by with the vehicles. Then , I sat down , together with Bambi (my new friend) .  He came in , saying , "stand up, let's pray ", but guess what ? He didn't pray , he just let us do the sign of the cross . I find it so weird by the fact that we are studying in a catholic school . 
         Then , he told us something that is so so , not so familiar things . I find it so enjoying and fun . He told us that the students may judge the teacher's ability in just 2 seconds of teaching . And , yes , he did .  It's so exciting being one of his students in just a one hour class . Though some misinterpret him as a bully one . We ( i think we're many)  always thinks that he's one of the most remarkable mentor in our school .    
      I remembered when he told us  ,  that we are crusaders in our own lives . He exemplified that when we stepped in into different path , we have to make sure that , we won't step out . Thus , we have to be more prayerful and faithful to God coz He knows everything . And he added that , " with God , everything is in control !" That thing . makes me smile every time ,some tears are about to fall .
     Another funny thing is when he always defend the MAN versus WOMEN . Why it's funny ? Well . join our class sometime . I'm sure you'll enjoy. It's pretty insane to a student to experience this , but me ? I never regret to have a subject in the middle of lunchtime schedule . It makes me full!
I always say whenever I am alone that I miss his class .
        Therefore!!! AHA! A RIZAL CLASS A DAY! KEEPS ME GOING FAR AND LET THE BOREDOM AWAY!
       More than a doctors advice but less than ( a little) , God's Providence~~!!
                                                      KEEP SMILING EVERYONE!



------ jessa 22.o8.11

COCKTAIL Day

 It was a full of embarrassment and fulfillment - that's the term I describe this day . I started my day by letting the chillies of my aunt's eatery spill on the floor .  It's a kind of , a much much much awkwardness . And obviously , I picked it all . Imagine , early in the morning , you've started that way ? Ugh!

 And it as 5 minutes before 10:00 , which actually my class starts when I reach the school . Because I am really in fast drive I almost didn't know what I am saying . Example , in buying a paper , instead of saying " yellow paper" , i said , "yellow pad miss!!" Gosh . Awful . Ugh! And a student which I really hated the course he belongs told me , "It's yellow paper!" Frankly , I am not offended o how corrected me 'coz I now I should be thankful for that . It's the fact that I am not able to say that I knew what is right , and to say he's not that handsome to talk to me that way ! Haha!

 And , on my way to my report , a event happened , I accidentally stick a packaging tape to my classmate's boo. ( I actually don't tell her 'bout this at this point of time.) It ruined the book . And what adds to this distress ? I almost died studying for a subject that i expected our teacher to give a quiz . And , unfortunately , he just discuss something . It's freaking me out!

 To the sugar side , I feel so happy about how I ad Nova defend our project in Writing . And I almost got drunk with my classmates in Rizal , who stays silence when I am in front . Hehe. :) 

 And that's my cocktail day , with lemon ? Yeah . Coz I am ready to destroy our locker , it's just because my beautiful friend lost the key . 

 You ? How's your day ? a sweet fruity one or a bitter but smooth like a beer  ?

God Bless!

-- j*sa 

07/22/11 :))

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ako at ang bolpen: secretamente: "Ito ang una kong sinulat sa aking 'blog ', Estorya ng kasawian at isang hikbi sa magdamag. Ang sabi'y pag-ibig na biglang naudlot, Na sa..."

secretamente

Ito ang una kong sinulat sa aking "blog ",
Estorya ng kasawian at isang hikbi sa  magdamag.
Ang sabi'y pag-ibig na biglang naudlot,
Na sakit at kirot sa puso'y tanging dulot.

Isang prinsesang may galak ang tingin ng lahat sa kanya,
At di maitatanggi ang kagandahan niya.
Isa siyang perpektong larawan sa tingin pa lang,
Pero lingid sa lahat , dama niya ang kakulangan.

Inibig siya ng isang prinsipeng nababagay sa kanya,
Lalakeng tanging siya ang sinisinta.
Sa buong buhay nito'y siya'y ginawang mundo,
Ngunit kahit minasan ay di tumibok ang kanyang puso.

Siya ngayo'y prisesa na pumipili ng nadarama,
Ang puso ba o ang nararapat sa kanya ?
Pinili niyang huwag pakinggan ang himig at tibok nito,
Umaasang titibok sa yaring Prinsipe at 'di magdurugo.

"Minamahal niya ito" , 'yan ang kanilang naririnig,
"Sila ang tinadhana" , 'yan ang bukambibig.
Pinapakita'y kaligayahan na lumilipad tulad ng guryon,
Ngunit sa puso ay may wari'y ambon.

Lumipas ang araw , buwan at taon,
Ang nadarama'y hindi inangkin at naalagaan ng panahon.
Puso ng Prinsesang Rosas ay ni minsan ay 'di tumibok,
Pag-ibig ay nanatili kung saang iniwang sulok.

Siya'y nagtakda na maglalayag sa ibang pahina ng buhay,
Tanging pag-asa'y pag-ibig na dalisay at tunay.
Isang araw ang orasan at buhay niya'y huminto,
Sa unang pagkakataon ay tinamaan ng kidlat ang puso!

Umibig siya at  umibig sa tingin niyang minamahal niya,
Sa piling ng Kawal ay may damdaming naiiba.
Iniwan ang lumuluhang Prinsipe sa nakaraan niyang talata,
Sinunod ang bulong ng pusong at dama niya ay pawang tama.

Lumipas ang yugto'y nahanap niya ang sarili sa isang sitwasyon.
Damdami'y pinaglalaruan ng tadhan at emosyon.
Sa bagong mahal ay mayroon ng sinta at tumatangi,
Sa lahat ng pag-ibig at sakripisyo'y luha ang ganti!

Ngayon siya ay naghihintay na tangi niyang sinta,
Umaasang may kalyaan ang ngayo'y hari niya.
At siya ngayong tinagurian na Reyna ng paghihintay at kalungkutan,
Na sana ay 'di niya nadama kung tinapos niya ang hangganan.

Siya'y nalilito kung ano ang dapat sundin at gawin,
Siya ba ay maghihintay o magiging bingi sa sigaw ng damdamin ?