Keeping Right without My Papa

How you feel when you lost someone ? who extremely means a lot to you . Who let you know everything that is under the sun . Well , it is how it feels like when I think about my Papa .

He is a soldier . He never stays at home the whole month , often never go home the whole four weeks even . Irony at its finest . Though he let us see what he always strive for , like in any movies about families , this is a blah blah dramatic . I hate crying scenes . But when Papa is talking about or my family , I can stop them from falling like raindrops . I always missed my Papa so much .

When I was a kid , he used to asked me about my school , and tell me that I have to stop bullying my classmates and my best friend Reyna . He said that it is bad . And when he said it , I would really do it . I stop playing with the boys in our school after that day . I am so sorry with Papa that he even didn't saw me changing my attitudes and how I am so goo , so good girl by now .

Missing Papa , is like a routine to me . Crying at night and in the blank by day . I should've let go of him , he is the one I would never replace by any millions of cash and I would really choose him than my bey blades before .

I reach college without him . My Mama always say that we have to do hard in order of my Papa. But the truth is all things that I accomplished like being the class valedictorian , awarded almost of the award in the programme and being one of the pioneering artists/writer of our school is so useless to me . I miss Papa . I would rather be dull and idiot just to have him back . So bad I couldn't bcoz God prohibited .

But see , I am an inspiring writer , a good daughter ( hope so ) and a students who stands that we have to strive for our country's tomorrow and who claimed the words of God and by my own principle . Loosing Papa is so hard and I am dying imagining it . Thus , I am a real , good , fantastic ( so arrogant , isn't ist? but true) girl he ever wanted . With God , I am doing good! With my Mama who is always there for me ! With my Papa in heaven whom I missed for almost nine years , I am keeping my way on the right track!
Keeping right without Papa is just a very hard task and a kind of adventure that God had given into me since I was in Grade Three . God is so good . I don't even know if I am on the first stop of this trip but I always pasted on my brain that Papa will always be there for me . He is listening , I know . He sees me , I know . He loves me , absolutely . He always think of me , that's it! We are all Papa's girl at home . I am not competing with my sisiters either . That is one way I can show how I love Papa .

I can show Papa that , my mother raised me as he wanted too . I can no longer hear on what he could say . But my heart ? My Papa always be here . He is more than a true love . He might not be the man , I can say that is perfect . He is more than a knight . Until now , he still is .

Papa and God with my Mama & along with the people surrounds me are partners in this journey . With them , slowly but surely , steadfast or faster I am keeping my way to my goal .


Love your Papa as well as everyone who loves (and even who don't) you!
-- jessa :( o9.o1.11

Likes of Men to Women : My surveys Says ....

It is such a crazy experience I encounter the last time join the Phase 1 training of the the chosen organization I entered in my second semester here in my school . It  is a what  we call a funny recollection off those things  I really don't expect that I would be thinking again and again . These are the things that most specially tagged as fave by women ( an the alike . ) Well . Read all of these in this  page , because we are gonna talking about what men likes on us and the hidden reasons behind it .

 I and older cousin sometimes helps my aunt ( i think always) in her eatery . We usually came in the morning and help do some store chores like grilling some meat parts for the barbecue . The stand was positioned fronting the highway in which many people are passing going their way to school and nearby offices . And then theres a time that we saw  girl . Wearing skin-tight jeans and fitted yellow shirt . He ( my cousin ) exclaimed that the girl is really hot . And when the girl turned his head , and we found out that he really look like a man . She is not really a gay man but he really look like a man ! Therefore , the first thing boys liked about girls is the hotness . The body for short .

The wits - the overall beauty with the smarts . Yes , when I was in High School , many courted me because I am popular being an "it" girl and an honor student as well as a student leader . Thus , this thing makes it sucks . Because I don't like being admired because of that .

We have the voice . Really , me too . I admire men with such good vocals or even speaking voice . We are leaving in the modern times , so many depend on fones . So some are communicating each one with it . Calling is one of the mediums . Who will not gonna fall in love with such good voice without seeing him/her ? (aberr ???) i would really admire a man with such musical voice ( if ever) . But this does not assure the physique of the person as well as the personality . My sister fortunately owns a really sweet cold voice . And that is a plus for her because , she too do have that pretty face .

I thought about the talents . I mean what she could do . And her/his abilities hat is uniquely adorable by many . My friend in high school was really distinguished by her ability to dance . She is really good on that . Though we have almost the same aspects and prospects in our looks . She is known for her talent . And that is the only thing many man reasoned out when I ask about how he fell in love with her - " it is dancing " .

Who could say no if someone asks you that she will buy you a new fone and a laptop ? Yeah . Boys ALWAYS like a girl who can treat them as a king . A king that has a lot of riches and many many material hings . And in that incident , the boy is not into the girl but eventually fall in love because of the concern (money) and caring ( vices) that the girl gives. ( The Practical Theory :) )

Time is really  a diamond. Not a gold . My survey says that , third parties always came from a friend into a lover status . It is really undeniably true . When a man spends a lot of time with a certain girl , he might fall in love with the girl that he is along with and fall out with the person he is committed to . Time is a great aspect of a relationship . And if he enjoys every time he is with you that is the moment he is falling in love too . ( IDK!)

The face itself . It is really a epidemic crisis nowadays that man looks up on the girl's face . If they would see a girl that is really pretty , they admire it easily , then fall in love and love it . But when a man falls in love with a less fortunate gifted according to faces , it must be the personality he fell with . Right ?

The sense of humour . Popularly known as the accompaniment of smiles theory . This is the factor in which the boy is falling in love with the girl by the reason that he enjoyed and entertained a lot with they are being together. Men always love i someone that could make him laugh bcoz they are problem prone mammals in this world . They might deny it , but they are . They want someone that could make his their busy day with a full of joys . As I was ridin a passenger in the tricycle leading to the terminal I saw a handsome boy with a funny faced girl . They are holding each others hands and laughing all along . May God bless the boy . He might got sick . ( Mabuyagan tungud sa iyang kauban .) Get ? Hehe


The last but the least among what the girls think . The simplicity of the girl is much like by boys . They might not say it but boys always love simple women as the always see in their sisters , cousins and moms at home . They love what girls are natural with . They are sure in love to the girls heart-warming beauty in which it is only seen by true love only . The thing can be always seen by acts and physical looks of the girl . Sexiness of the girl may not be affordable by men  .  They might got used into that and throw it wherever and whenever . But simplicity , would always be there . It would never fade . It is a must to accept what you have . Simplicity is a pure gift . and too much decorations may spoil the disposition .


All boys are unique in terms of what they liked on girls , but this does not mean that we have to always be according to them .
Love comes as God chooses the right time . If you would push those things that you never wanted just to be admire , you might suffer a great sickness that is " time never let it back syndrome . "
Like is like and never be called love either . Like turns to love when God let us see what it really means . See ? :))



Make your day complete with a prayer everyone !
Adios!
-- jessa o9.o1.11 :-D

Kadayawan Diaries of 2011

     There is really no place like Davao- that is the very thing I would really say when I would be going home . I am a “ just-a-traveler” . I mean that I am into places that I could find the satisfaction of going into many journeys like traveling East to North . But guess what ? I keep going back to Davao . Not just I really came from here but this is purely the home I would never dare to replace .

Every third day of August , Kadayawan was celebrated by the Davaoeńos as well as many tourists came from overseas and nearby cities and municipalities . This festival was hailed as the festival of all festivals . It is the king of all festival in the country . Reasons behind it are very obvious . One is the colorful representation of the living historical tribes of Davao . This depicts the discovery of Daba-daba to Ciudad del Davao . The demonstrations of such tribes like Manobos , Mandaya , Bagobo , Kagan , Samales and many more were shown by the Indak Indak Kadalanan 2011 . These tribes' dances of feast , harvest and cultural representation were brought alive by the students came from different schools and people came from different ensembles . It is amazingly magnificent to see the colorful culture of Davao by its tribe despite of beliefs and religion and culture . Davao is indeed a city of merging diversities of many people and culture .

On the star-studded side , nay artists came from different artist center from manila came here to join and experience the Kadayawan with us . I admit it . I regret that I don't have the chance to see coco Martin at NCCC Mall . But I am sure that the Davaoenos are really on the cloud nine by that time most specially when they'd witness the PGT's Musical Protege like our very own Bruce Osorio which have show what they got at Gaisano Mall of Davao . Malls are emptied . I mean emptied of space.

The coastal is also an event's venue ,. For one of the radio stations based here Davao held a “ Bangkarera Festival .The event was joined by many boat riders and operators came from outside and inside the city area. the Sta. Ana wharf was really filled that day .

And if you think that was all , wait! There's more ! A nursing student of San Pedro College was crowned as the Hiyas ng Kadayawan 2011 , replacing the throne of Bernadeth which is remarkable of representing her tribe from Paradise Embac. The new queen represents her tribe is none other none Rahina Usman . Her beauty and wits along with other girls makes Davao's ethnical features more interesting .

I remembered last Saturday's experience of mine . My uncle and I were on our way going to school . But since it is Kadayawan , we are on the alternative route to lessen the traffic and the reason that the road will be used .We luckily seen the beautiful drive of the participants' colorful and creative costumes and props in which accompanied by the festive sound made by their musical corps. I was about to be deaf by the sounds made by the drums and cymbals but I have the Kadayawan Spirit on me . It sounds so weird but it is really a fact ! I enjoyed it so much!And the essence made the cold-rainy morning hotter than the Venus. I love seeing it . It is reminiscing my years before in high school when I was still a member of the drum and lyre corps . The heat of the sun that makes me an African-Filipino and the splash of our own sweat diminished by our enjoyment and smiles.

But before I got so sentimental here . I want to share the float parades that I had seen this morning in the news paper. It is the so-called “ Pamulak sa Kadayawan” . It is came from the word “bulak” meaning flower in Cebuano , the blossoming of flowers of Kadayawan. Colorful flowers were arranged into forms and designs to make a beautiful portrayal of Davao City's festival . A trivia for that, the Abreeza Ayala Mall , who join the category for the first time won the top prize of the Pamulak sa Kadalanan. . The float describes the representation of cultural highlights of Davao City .

Davaoeńos and tourists were surely never ever forget every Kadayawan experienced they could have. As so , as I am . Though it really sucks ton think that I missed the whole thing in actual of it , I do believe that every day is a Kadayawan for me . For we are enjoying ourselves a the people of Davao everyday .

An example to show how Kadayawan is fun-filled celebration , I want to share some reality story here . It is when I was in high school . Since I am a member of the Girl Scout of the Philippines , we are task to give as long as we can , the contingents' participants water or juice to help them in their performance . It is one way of imparting yourself as being one of the people of your city . It is when a tourist , an American citizen is taking some pictures of the parade . When he saw us , he smiled and giving a thumbs up . With no hesitations , I told him with a loud voice saying , “ You want to see the beauty of Davao , Davaoenia and Kadayawan ? Well , look at us . We are about to laugh but it is really surprising that he told us that and ask if he can take some of our smiles and faces in his camera . He shot some . A one , two , three, four and the more and more . He felt so enjoyed a well as my peers , he told us this , “ Davao is really so wonderful like you.” it is really an overwhelming of joys that day . That the fact that even him who didn’t know our story appreciates us .

The month-long celebration of Kadayawan also held the Sayaw Mindanao 2011 , in which the stories of our cultural richness were depicts . One of the contestant is the Kapitan Thomas Monteverde's bird hunting that showed up the promising ethnic stories of the natives , specially the our Lumad brothers and sisters .

The Trade Department of Davao also held a caravan in which many tourist or even the Davao people can purchase a discounted price for products such as agricultural products of the city .

Though this year's celebration is rated 8 out of 10 by our mayor , I know it is worth the effort of the people behind its success . It is really hard of controlling the crowd and the threat of the rain . You can't blame all the flaws on them .the sun didn’t shone up the whole day and the rain drops hard in the afternoon . It is a sign of blessing from God , that He , the Creator celebrates with us on that day .

Let us not live the celebration just like an eagle who flew so fast but instead let us take it as a Durian's smell and taste that sticks on our finger . I mean we have to treasure the richness of our own city . With this Kadayawan festival , we can show up the world that we are still on our beautiful culture and living our own history . Kadayawan is not just a celebration itself but it depicts the beautiful aspects of Davao city's history , culture , ethnic binds and the progressing city's rich yesterday and tomorrows story . This is also a unique representation of a clear creation of Davao's spectacular richness and God-given gifts that we have to treasure.

Lastly, Davao indeed is a melting pot of of all trades and the alike . Leisure are leisure . But Kadayawan is not only a leisure feast and a time here in Davao . It is an event wherein colorful ethnical stars and modern clouds of today merges to make a beautiful Davao's Kadayawan sunshine . :-)

A Girl's Thought In An Embarassing Day

     There are a lot of experience that I would really say I am humiliated as a person or as an individual created by God . But what's intrigues me most is when I was shock that I had seen a reality smashing ( or whatever you describe) experience with schoolboys here in our school .

    Boys are boys that was the only thing when I would think about some boys who are not acting the thing that is should be reacted by man . Well , when we talk about domination , though we are really dominating in numbers . But believe me , they really control and manifest more rights than us . With no malicious reaction , let me tell you this . It was first describe from the ancestors of the ancestors of the ancestors of all ancestors! okay! that is enough . Man is highly appreciated as the master of the Ancient and Pre-Historic accounts  , they are much details about king , a little on queens .Stories telling , "... he is waiting for his prince after a long sleep..."Have you notice about it ? Let us not deny the fact that , they really are the one who rules the blah blah TIMES! But , years and millenniums had past and gone. so ? Why should we stick on that ? Even POKEMON and DIGIMONS evolve ! So , as well as human right ? It is funny to think that many women following this kind of belief ( that men rules) . Far from what is taught in the Far Far Far away land , I am not waiting for any prince in my entire life ! REALLY! :))

     I believe that God has made a partner which would really be there for me for the right time . I quit listening to any love songs , it ruins my day ! Find me rude ? Yeah ! I'm rude . :p

   Let us not go far with this , I would really tell you something that is seems to embarrass me every time I remember . That is , when I am riding the malls elevator going 3rd floor . There are 4 typical kinds of passengers , a granny , a sexy whatever , a student (me) and a maritime trainee .When we reach the destination , the maritime trainee gives way to that sexy bombshell while the old lady was slightly clinging herself on the elevator's wall . Look ? Where's the gentleman word on it ? Does it mean that they are men so they are like that ? Don't tell me that being men means not acting according to good manners ? Oh come on !

   Another situation is when I was inside the school e-library . Many students lined up to avail the free internet surfing on that place . When a student stands going outside , that means he/she would be replace on that unit giving others a chance . But what is really a mess ? A man , or let us say for immaturity , a boy , walk so fast reaching the isle to that certain seat while overtaking the girl  that is walking slow . Well , I can't deny that it was a disadvantage . But for me ? The word " gentleman " was sold out in the market . 

 Dominating doesn't always mean that you are right . in the times of Martin Luther King and Mahatma Gandhi , they are not what the majority comprises of ,but still they are a part of the history . Right ?

 Moreover , women are just a part of the man's rib but , without women ? Men are totally USELESS!! No offense! 

    For Women : Raise your right hand if I am right ! ( obviously , you would do that . hehe)

    For Man : You don't have the right to argue with that! LOL! :))))

-- jessa saying ".. equality is always be what Cicero said . "

o8.22.11

 

A Dose of College Trips

   And here we are again  . I usually came to my 1:00 pm class , 30 minutes advance but since I am enjoying that much coziness here in the e-library , I would not do that punctuality this time .
   I wanna tell about my MWF experience with the most fantastic mentor for Rizal subject I ever met in my whole , blah blah blah ENTIRE LIFE! I'm not kidding here . Yes , he is . The first time i met him in our classroom , that was a , ugh ! Tiring . Sweating . Exhausting . Since  I have to walk along a narrow road wherein many students pas by with the vehicles. Then , I sat down , together with Bambi (my new friend) .  He came in , saying , "stand up, let's pray ", but guess what ? He didn't pray , he just let us do the sign of the cross . I find it so weird by the fact that we are studying in a catholic school . 
         Then , he told us something that is so so , not so familiar things . I find it so enjoying and fun . He told us that the students may judge the teacher's ability in just 2 seconds of teaching . And , yes , he did .  It's so exciting being one of his students in just a one hour class . Though some misinterpret him as a bully one . We ( i think we're many)  always thinks that he's one of the most remarkable mentor in our school .    
      I remembered when he told us  ,  that we are crusaders in our own lives . He exemplified that when we stepped in into different path , we have to make sure that , we won't step out . Thus , we have to be more prayerful and faithful to God coz He knows everything . And he added that , " with God , everything is in control !" That thing . makes me smile every time ,some tears are about to fall .
     Another funny thing is when he always defend the MAN versus WOMEN . Why it's funny ? Well . join our class sometime . I'm sure you'll enjoy. It's pretty insane to a student to experience this , but me ? I never regret to have a subject in the middle of lunchtime schedule . It makes me full!
I always say whenever I am alone that I miss his class .
        Therefore!!! AHA! A RIZAL CLASS A DAY! KEEPS ME GOING FAR AND LET THE BOREDOM AWAY!
       More than a doctors advice but less than ( a little) , God's Providence~~!!
                                                      KEEP SMILING EVERYONE!



------ jessa 22.o8.11